Gone...

The night is cold, dark and Im alone.It seems like so long agoThe last morning I woke up by your side,The last night we shared my bed,The last sunset we welcomed lost in each other´s lust,The last touch that meant more than words,The last time I said I love you and meant it,The last time I saw your face, your smile, your eyes and couldn't wait to make you mine again.Now it´s all gone,The days aren´t endless anymore,The dream of seeing you again doesn't torment me that often,The need of having you isn´t as strong.Yes, I am with someone new and so are you,And although I neither want you nor need youI can not seem to forget you, to leave you behind and recover that piece of my heart.

Wanted

I wanted to go farther than the stars
I wanted to take you where your mind never could.
Keeping up with you was never easy
The harder you were, the deeper i fell.
Confusion shadowed my thoughts
The old me got lost at some point along the way
And I couldn´t care less.
Everything that surrounded me was a blur
Everything except you.
Nothing meant much
But you.
I wonder if you ever noticed
How my eyes got blinded by your beauty
How my voice cracked when I felt your hand brush against mine
How everything seemed to dissapear when you were at my sight
How after so long I still feel the same way as I felt
When I saw you for the first time.
I wonder if you know
I love you.

Fear

The door is locked
You are waiting on the other side
Begging me to let you in
To give you a chance.
It has been to long
We have come so far
Yet, Im still scare
I cant give in just yet.
You deserved much better
Someone that isnt afraid
That doesnt hurt you
That loves you as much as you love me.
Is not that I dont want you
Because I do.
Its just that it wouldnt work
I would screw it up.
You would give up on me
And leave me with my missery
With my loneliness
Alone
Not scary at all, right?
Im telling all this
But you wont believe
So I start walking father from the door
For your own good
While I can hear ur voice
Still outside
Telling me otherwise.
Suddenly you stop
I wait for your voice
Nothing
This is just another one of your games
So I wait longer
Still silence
I worry
I run to the door
Hopping to see you there
Hopping you are just testing me
Hopping that my biggest fear hasnt come true.
I open it.